Nothing Is worse then being in love alone. Thinking of her nd back home makes me wonder if ill ever call it all my own. Its hard to be sure nd it leaves me more insecure love is distant but I know its the cure.
There’s such things in life that are harder then others. Some People practice at those things nd they seem to get easier as time progresses. Although people tend to think these things are sports, jobs, crafts, schooling or even talents they don’t realize those are Only things that help you escape the true troubles In life. Things such as being a drug addict, alcoholic divorce, depression or even losing a family that is close to one another.
The true troubles in life in my opinion aren’t things you can practice at to be perfect because things can never be perfect but are things u can prevent before they trouble you. Once you’re In trouble then u have a problem. As everyone knows if there’s a problem its because of your habits. To fix a problem you first have to realize your habbits are and what causes you to trigger those habits.
Everyone is guilty of having problems nd bad habits. You’re not human if u don’t.
So then that leaves me wondering what to do when the problem isn’t within myself But within another person. A loved one. The only thing that bothers me more then anything is being face and face with a problem and not being able to solve or be able to help fix it.
I’ve always said Nd will continue saying for the rest of my life I will not trigger the gene of alcoholism within my body. My brother did nd he wound up in and out of jail nd almost dead. Its something that scares me more nd more due to the fact I will be turning 21 along with all my buddies this year. A lot of them see fun by getting drunk. I see it as a death trap nd a way to lose your life within a drug. I Only view it that way Because of living with a alcoholic. There is no way in hell I wud let myself be that way. I want more than that in life. I love my dad nd as long as he’s my dad ill always believe he can change nd beat being a alcoholic before its too late nd it takes his life away…
I want to live my dream i want u to close your eyes nd feel how blue I am inside. Tell me what’s a man to do with his back against the wall. Do I fall? Tell me how to act. Im on my knees please just see that destiny is passing by. I can only cry, I can’t lie and wont hold what’s Inside.
If I had been in school where wud We be prolly still together like when we were fifteen. You can only imagine this pain that haunts me. I did the crime I admit that and im doing the time but your beautiful I want that smile to be mine.
I don’t write these things as Just lines or for Just a rhyme. I do this out of joy from my heart to give you light when your alone. Cuz I am always there weather rain, sleet, snow or however cold you are I hope u read this and feel the warmth of my arms.
These aren’t things to fear only things you need to hear if the end is close then I wud be proud to say you had me at hello nd I held on at goodbye. Just relax babe don’t cry spread your wings nd be that butterfly. Because I know you’ll fly my way nd ur broken heart won’t break again.
When life comes at you out of the darkness, who will you choose to face it with? Will they be wise? Will their love for you help them to lead you to the light or will they lose their way in the darkness? Will they make noble choices, or will that person be someone untested, someone new? Life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness. And when it does, is there someone you can depend on when it does?
Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it’s the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who’s standing next to you?
Feeling things that I’ve felt before treading water as my heart is washed ashore. Left to dry nd left in the sand I believe it fits in your hands.
Im not mad and im certainly not glad but I can’t say it doesn’t hurt really bad. How I used to say u had brown instead of hazel eyes I knew the truth but instead I lied. Only to see that look on Your face that I love thinking I don’t know something about my bestfriend.
There’s much that I miss so much that I wish. But not a lot to hope for standing at a closed door. I can’t knock anymore then I already do. I don’t know what else I have to go through.
If im in Your head like You are while I write this in my bed then let it show because I wud love to know. Silence kills me Nd Downs my dreams.
I can say Whatever it takes but really i will be left in this lake of lovr to tread until I give up, then im dead
Forever and always even if in the dark your love will always be in my heart.
Goodnight
